Temporarily single

This morning, after taking my son to remove his stitch (it healed really well), I said goodbye to my boys for the week. They are off to Hornby Island where they will play on the beach, go fish (and maybe even catch something), canoe and camp. And hopefully they’ll miss me a little bit.

Funny how I was really looking forward to this week alone – no responsibility, freedom to go shop after work or do anything I want, nobody waiting for me at home, no need to do dished for three people, etc. – but I got really teary-eyed saying goodbye this morning. I’ll miss them like crazy! Can you believe it will be the first time I sleep alone in our apartment since we moved here (I have left for trips without Zak, but he hasn’t). And I have never traveled alone since our son was born, so I haven’t been without him – or without Zak – for more than 12 hours in three years.

This morning, I took the bus with my boy to the doctor’s while Zak was packing the car for the trip, and the whole way there he was cuddling with me. He knows I’m not going with them, but I don’t think he realizes how long he’ll be without me. Sigh. Don’t we mothers always feel guilty? I know he’ll be fine. He’ll have his grandmother, grandfather, aunt, great-aunt and great-grandmother to play with, on top of his dad – and a dog. He’ll have a whole island to explore with lots of marine life, rocks and sand that just die to be dug and dumped (we brought a digger and dump truck, of course), and lots of brand new fishing gear to try. But I’m still worried he’ll miss me – and I’ll miss them!

2 Responses to “Temporarily single”

  1. Anne Says:

    I don’t know if I’m a bad mother, but every single time I’ve had time alone since I’m a mother, I’ve enjoyed it. Which is not to say I don’t miss them when they’re away (although the older they get, the better it gets to be alone), but I’ve never felt guilty about it.

  2. sophie Says:

    I don’t think it’s the sign of a bad mother. I’m just glad that I DO miss them, or else I really would have felt guilty…